Joana-the-Raichu

No, I wasn't dead! But yeah, it's been a long time, folks. Blame high school for that. -.-' And it's exactly because of school that I won't be on dA as often as before. Expect art once in a while, but not too much. You know, student life... -.-'

As one might expect, I've been through a lot of things since I last wrote a journal entry: it's been a year! Some of them were good, some were not so good... but I'm back. My inbox was overflowing with messages, so I really had to delete them because I don't have the time to check them all. Sorry about that.

I'm going back to school on the 9th September. I thought it would be around my birthday, as it used to be (what a birthday gift...), but it turns out that I'm meeting my class mates and my teachers again earlier than the past years. It's good because I kinda miss them... but it's also bad because, like I said or tried to say, school means loads and loads of work.

Again, I'm glad to be back!

Yes, the title is pretty self-explanatory, and I sincerely thank everyone who wished me a happy b-day, as you turned this day into such a special day for me.
I would like to specially thank for his wonderful (and EPIC) gift, and also for being the very first one to wish me a happy b-day, even before my family did it! Thank you, Danny, for being such a kind and sweet person to me.

I thank to all my school mates, even those who I didn't know previously, for also making this school day a different day in some way. And I thank my family, for all their gifts and for always standing by my side.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

Well, school has started once again for me. This obviously means I won't have so much free time as I had in the previous 3 months, as I must keep studying every single day so I can keep my good reputation as well. It'll be quite rare for me to upload any art.
I'm in a completely different school from this day on until 2013, if things go like planned. I've already met new friends, who seem to be rather cool and nice to me. I've even met another girl called Joana! x) She seems to kind of bond with me, which is good. ^^
But apart from that, my performance in classes and tests mainly always was and still is the most important thing to me. I've had a lot of fun with my new teachers today, as they seem to be playful and nice. But I haven't met all of them yet; I hope the others are playful too. (:

Three years in this scientific course and I can leave for college, where I'll do a medicine degree course. In my country, the average marks to get in medicine degrees are really high, but I won't let that "scare" me, as I believe I can do it.

So, see you soon! :3

Today I got word of something really terrible: 's father passed away this morning. Maybe I have no words to express this deep sadness, as I've even cried while trying to make him feel better… with words that came from my heart. Reminds so much of when I've lost my granddad…

And so, since I have writing as one of main hobbies, I wrote this for my best friend. I've just… followed my heart.  

And so, another life left.
Another page was turned.
Another nightmare came to stay.
Why does it have to be so cruel?
Why did you have to leave?
Please come back; I still need you!
I love you too much to live without you!

Well, I guess that's how it goes, then.
Life has its own way of being cold to us.
Were you afraid of dying?
Were you afraid of living?
Your role was accomplished.
You made me happy, but I still can't get over it.
All these memories; they fade but they still remain.

You know what's harder?
It's knowing how to live life.
Life itself isn't hard at all.
If you lived your life well, then you know:
You shouldn't be afraid of dying.
Those who love you will feel the pain
But that's how it really is.

To think yesterday I was in a rather good mood
And now your leaving made me feel so low.
I am heartbroken…
Just when things went right
(Didn't mean they were always wrong)
Something had to steal your life away from me
And leave me in tears.

"Only a life lived for others is worth living"
Said Albert Einstein, who has left Earth too.
You may leave Earth, but you'll always remain
In my heart, a place you can call home.
I know I may not see you anymore…
And that tears me apart…
But I will always love you.

What it'll be like
Living without you?
Looking at all the places you usually were
And knowing you won't come back there;
Thinking about all the things we've been through
And about all the things we might have gone through…
It hurts too much.

I was never able to repay you back fully
And that's what hurts me the most.
So many things to be said…
So many things to be done…
And still, the world keeps spinning;
Time keeps going by.
But the pain, it will never leave me.

Deep inside, I knew that this day would come
But I still can't believe you're gone.
Looks like you've gone somewhere else;
I can still see you there, coming back from that place.
Smiling and telling me everything's okay.
But I know the ending of this story:
You're never coming back!

What's love without pain?
It's like if you're walking under the pouring rain:
If you do, you'll get wet.
Death is like a passage to the other way,
The other way which awaits us as well.
I don't know what it is like.
But let's not say farewell.
Let's just say "See you there".

Please stop by his dA profile and give him some support.

Yeah, it has. Don't worry, I'm not dead (yet), nor inactive at dA. You may be wondering what happened to me. Well, nothing special; I just got a test season and my final exams. I even got into a depression because of them (and other things), but I guess it was all unnecessary, because I ended up having great grades anyway. I'm still recovering from that depression, and I think I'm getting better. (:
Also, I've been getting these intense and fast pains on my chest. They're so fast that I only get time to think "I'm gonna die". It didn't happen yet, and I hope it doesn't. My parents are (obviously) quite upset with that, but I try not to worry too much about it. I can't get very worried or nervous, because I suffer from anxiety.

Some of you have missed my art, haven't you? ^^ Don't worry; I'll come back to drawing soon. (: I'm looking forward for your comments!